Ryann'dra Auspaztic.
17 & old :X
gloomybear = sexxxx
i lost my way, i lost my way
while skipping down the yellow brick road
i lost my way [puff the magic dragon :O]
electro yourself, baybeh
anti-violence; say no to plastic bags!!!
they don't deserve you, anyways
♥♥♥

apathy. kills.
boredom. kills even more.
i. hate this place.
so much.
i think. i hate the whole world.
because.
i don't feel comfortable anywhere.
i don't want to feel awkward
and i don't want to belong
see? i'm contradicting myself again.
it's like i'm agreeing to conformity and originality at the same time.
both of which, i lack [in very huge proportions]
immature people annoy me.
i can't believe i behave like them
[hypocrite much, ry?]
sometimes i just wish people WOULDN'T hate me
sometimes i just want to sleep the day away and forget that everything else existed
like "HA! no more school"
or "HA! no more idiots who give me weird stares"
am i bipolar or something?
because i feel as if i'm like 2 completely different people
in school and at home
it's like in school i'm just some obnoxious fucked retard who talks to loud
and at home i'm just some anti-social creep who doesn't talk enough
i feel outta place
it's so frickin stupid, i know.
i'm sick of change and yet i crave it so bad
i can't stand the fact that 60% of the friends i had last year now mean nothing to me
and i want so bad to move on and leave them behind
i mean i do miss them
and i guess sometimes it hurts to find out
the real levels of animosity and love that exist between them and me
i mean no doubt i am very appreciative of the friends i have now
i mean i can see that they really are genuine friends
but what happened to those in the past?
i mean i loved them to bits!
it's kinda crazy to say this but my life literally revolved around them
but i guess we all move on, aye?
i did learn something from them ;
not everything is what it seems
especially those you hold closest to your heart
as i read in Christa's book,
never make someone your priority when to them you're just an option.
life.
betrayal.
animosity.
envy.
hatred.
revenge.
life's such a bitch, isn't it?