Ryann'dra Auspaztic.
17 & old :X
gloomybear = sexxxx
i lost my way, i lost my way
while skipping down the yellow brick road
i lost my way [puff the magic dragon :O]
electro yourself, baybeh
anti-violence; say no to plastic bags!!!
they don't deserve you, anyways
♥♥♥

Revenge.
An unseen contract forged by immaturity.
Confusion.
Blindness to the facts of life that lay ahead.
Denial.
Ignorance to reality and what it has to offer.
Fallacy.
Infatuation and lust in their true forms.
Silence.
Ingenious concealed behind a frown or a smile.
Manipulation.
A play of the truth, mistaken for betrayal.
Surrender.
The realization of destruction, hurt and dismay.
Apathy.
Grief in the highest degree.


i think i've figured the solo of "The Take's Over, The Break's Over" by Fall Out Boy
and that's the only thing i can be proud of now
which is pretty pathetic
i wasted the week away
texting people i shouldn't be texting
feeling jaded
and totaly wasted
what a way to spend the week
stoning and being totally blanked by guitarhero3
and feeling so stupid and yet so confident
over what?
absolutely NOTHING
ryann ryann ryann
CONTRADICTING FUCK
i contradict myself too much
and i hate that
i'm not supposed to contradict myself
and i wish i'd stop meeting guys
who just wanna get in my pants
which is completely stupid
because the chicks at geylang are WAY hot
have you ever heard of being comfortable in your skin
when you can barely figure yourself out?
yep
contradicting FUCK, i tell you
and the teachers are becoming megabitches over night
not that I'M concerned
it's just that everyone'2 complaining
are we THAT horrible??
*shrugs*
whatever goes, as usual

surrender; every word, every thought, every sound, every touch, every smile, every frown..

who am i?
what is this i feel with each passing day?
is there a word to describe?
is it dread?
is it weariness?
is it infatuation?
is it apathy?
is it boredom?
i want to LIVE
i want to LOVE
i want to BURN
i want to CRASH
i want to DIE
such is life <3


baby, i miss you<3