Ryann'dra Auspaztic.
17 & old :X
gloomybear = sexxxx
i lost my way, i lost my way
while skipping down the yellow brick road
i lost my way [puff the magic dragon :O]
electro yourself, baybeh
anti-violence; say no to plastic bags!!!
they don't deserve you, anyways
♥♥♥

i remember spending time at my carpark, drawing with chalk on the bitumen. about how i felt. it's funny because it would rain on the exact night i drew my stupid chalk drawings on the hot floor.

sometimes i wonder if people can hold on to their lies for long. whether people are worth thinking about. because, like the wind, friends come and go. they're like fine grains of sand. have too many and you find them slipping away. and all that's left are the ones that stick to the palm of your hand. lesser than the ones you used to have but you know they're there. you can feel that they're there. enough talk about sand. i miss shisha-ing. even though i went shisha-ing today. i want to go again. i want to taste that sweetness that tickles the tip of my tongue. the inability to think or feel sane for a moment. that sense of bravery and courage. and most importantly, the temporary ability to actually forget. to forget whatever's been going on. and i hate what's going on. i don't know why i'm kinda letting my heart out in a blog post but i just feel the need to, yknow? i feel hurt and at the same time thankful. for family and partial understanding. for friends and an unlimited supply of hugs and love. well, i guess i should stop thinking. but it's hard because it seems that im always thinking. about stupid things. i want shisha. i know i know. you can't drink or shisha your troubles away. but hey. we're all gonna die and then we're in deep shit. i miss the burn, i miss the sting of a blade running across my stupid skin. where troubles, hurt, anger and frustrations weren't limited to paper and the fucking bitumen. somewhere permanent (maybe) and something portable. a reminder. of what you pulled through. its funny how even though it's been a yr, i can't really forget.. you?
KEBLEARGH!








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I WANT TO WATCH TRANSFORMERS 2 NOW







i'm under quarantine for a week. from school.
which sucks. because i want to go to school.
so there'd be more time for a proper closure.
and then i can say goodbye.
should i say goodbye?







day 1:

okay. we touched down, right? and my mum n sis laughed at me cos they thought my bag was weird. met Uncle Tony. he's hella cool. then we headed back to mum's place and slacked around abit. we went to an italian restaurant called Aperol where the whacked manager kept screaming like a fucktard. but he's cool :D. oh he tried to make out w gran. which was like O.O, okay?

day 2:

we went to the city. saw a potential druggie. wtfh. he looks so sad like this ----> :(. went to jayjays n all. tried 2 luk for souveniors and "to write love on her arms". but couldnt. found baby milo instead! DAMN COOL SHOP! the cashier dude was kinda cute. LOL. saw SPIDERMAN hoodies. you zip it up all the way to ur head n TA-DAH!! SPIDERMAAAAAN! we ate at some food court. shared a sandwich n salad w Jo. n an iced tea. she drank like 90p of it yknow. then we shopped abit. texted here n there. anyway, we went to burswood to eat after that. OMFG OKAY. THE FOOD WAS FUCKEN AWESOME! :O pity i didnt get to eat all :(

day 3:

sent Jo to school. her school is.. O.O HAHAH ADMIN OFFICE KENA BURN DOWN XD. din do much in the afternoon. had a V OILY BREKKY. mum n gran shared fruit toast XD. hehehe. after that, went around. blah blah blah. came back Auntie Pearl cooked tomyam for lunch. damn cool. then i napped. i dreamt my phone got fully submergedin water last night. and that i was leaving for spore tmr :((. haha den went to pick Jo up. i cnt rmb wat we did. haha. den we ate n slacked around. haha. okay sleepy now. we're both sick from the hichew eating competition. bleehhhhhh.



hey guess what!
im like. abt to board the plane in an hrs time!
hehe. PSYCHED!
i had the strangest dream last night!
ami came w me to perth!
n we saw alex there!
god im gonna miss spore.
weird rite?
im blogging with my psp.
haha.
grans here too.
anyway, boarding nw.
love u guys!








sometimes i wonder, why we cower behind walls, and why we cry over stupid boys
why it hurts so much to think about them at times, and why we build walls.
and why we sacrifice so much for people, who never see what we've done in the end
and then i remember why i build these walls around myself
because of what has been done and said
and to be honest, i don't want these walls to fall
i just wanna know who's brave enough to climb over the walls
instead of trying to break them down
because the walls are part of who i am